Have u put urself in my shoes?

Angry and depressed

Am i useless? I sounded so.. I am learning.... After all that is not my field...
It is totally new to me.... Did u ever think of my thoughts?

I admit i was wrong to certain degree...... I should have imposed some thoughts after everythings i did. But did u remind me? Just simply gave me some instructions and expected me to do everything without any guidance. Important details have stated there.... yet still raise stupid questions about it. Treat my report like shit huh, then please do not ask me to send u the results at the end of the week.

You said u hardly seen me smile... Because i do not know how to smile in front of you. Really do not how to smile.....i felt so little. Like an ant crawling on ur mightly palm, can be die in any moment.

SUddenly i felt so weak.. i thought myself as a strong person. I was totally wrong.... i need someone to relie on. Learning to take things into my pride and stride, be a totally different person.

Working hard... desperately!!
People at first thought i was here to have a holiday. Enjoy myself all those stuffs.... after the all bombardments i had, people felt guilty........ totally treat me differently. Taught me stuffs patiently... Very grateful but i ended up being beaten up actually was ur wrongdoing. Due to ur wrong perception of my aim here...caused me to be carry a face without smile to see him.

The less educated peoples sensed my unhappiness... although they are cleaners. They are kind, warm people. They will come to me, and said " Pin, smile.... do not frown!". Sometime i wish i am a cleaner living in no stress working life.